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Lake side

Posted: July 25, 2012 in deep notions, thoughts

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Here iam by the same lake side
wishing to be in the same time frame
Memories flushed into the pool of my head

Times have remained but the seasons have changed
Yet i can find something to base my words new all over again
Its strange times cause i am happy yet i feel lame

Hollow are our ideas if not implemented correct
You never are sure about the words you said
Retrospect each idea and tell me if i am wrong again

Names and people i never remember yet i cant let go
Like these ripples i get pushed to the banks
This sweet calm in day light and black shadow by night
As are my dreams colored in twilight

Yet i find myself here again
As if these banks call my name time and time again
Die and live my thoughts with every rise and its sunset
Dreaming of old memories at the lake side

Light in the dark

Posted: June 27, 2012 in insane, thoughts

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When someones mind starts to live in its fears that right there is the darkest hour for that person. Everyone is in genral able to survive cause we know how to control our fears but someone whose mind constantly reminds it of the very things that causes fear then you have a problem. Sanity and Not is just divided by a thin and fragile line upon which our fears reside. We bend and twist around this line everyday with ease. Fears are unique to each and everyone, loss of loved one, physical harm or death itself and then a few thousand materilstic fears survive in our heads. Yet we each day knowingly put ourselves at risk and under pressure. The dark has its own appeal and everyone survives having to not give into it. We choose to see the light no matter how faint or frail and live without fears. To give into or to rid one of these fears has the same strength of outcome but opposite the values of normal human behaviours. Darkest fears are needed for the light to be seen as light is seen better through the dark.

We cant know everything, actually we will never know nothing.
And to know that we cant know everything is wisdom (leo tolstoy)
The only thing we can know is what we want. A child wants to grow and have fun it doesnt understand good or bad it just knows what it wants and what makes it smile.
A sadhu wants to attain inner peace to be one with this world, which i think means death without leaving bad memories or noncompleted deeds.
Rest of us want a lot but mostly all want love.
I dont really understand how can one reach higher state of consiousness when the seeker is wanting it in the first place. If someone doesnt want anything i mean nothing not even inner peace or whatever that is, would truly be free. We all are bound by our wants and needs nothing wrong cause we are animals after all.
i want to know everything that there can be known but thats unachievable and i am sure you agree, if thats true than i cant achieve the higher state for if i dont know what all surrounds me and affects me how am i to rid myself of it.
Personaly i believe the ones we call crazy or mad are the people who have understood more than us normal people and hence they have lost it or got to the higher state.
The most controversial thing is… hindu vedas start with a simple statement ” jagath mithya” meaning everything is an illusion and hence all that we know is false. Like the colors we see actually dont exist they are just given colors by our brain for different shades of black to make it easier for us to differentiate. If it all starts by being false by the color itself then rest is self explanatory.
I am not saying to find the higher state and stuff is wrong or hokus.pokus but that we need to have a control on our wants or to get to state of peace we need to not want anything not even want inner peace, but thats never gona happen you see. So one should achieve all that one wants and then you might truly achieve an unwanting stage and be at peace…but then again that will never happen we humans keep wanting more and more.
Then my or anyone elses chase to keep getting at our wants is the journey to getting to inner peace like a meditators meditation is to his.
What our are wants, they ae desires for money, materials and to be loved, so we are seeking things to have all this stuff but for whom for the ones we love and to get love in return. Love drives us all, so if i get the ideal love have i achieved nirvana… If thats sounds true what are these sadhus, monks etc..looking for in solitude for in their state of solace they are with no one, then maybe to rid ones self of all forms of love is to get the ultimate inner peace… But what if one falls in love with the idea of solitude then again you are wanting something and the whole journey to higher state is wasted.
In this whole argument all are defeated as either ways we all are wanting something..even love for god or devotion to god is wanting for thy holiness blessings or something.
This wiserskydiver feels to completly love someone without any expectations or questions is to get the higher state.. And that again is unachievable for at some point you gona be wanting to be loved back, but those few moments when you unquestioningly loving someone is yojr higher state, when you are truly happy just being with someone for no reason or wants..that is true nirvana.

Needs

Posted: March 25, 2012 in helpless, thoughts
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Things are needed to have a life
I just needed you to be by my side  

Life i have even now like all i see
I just wanted you to hold me  

Food clothes and roof fancy i have indeed
I just asked you to share it with me  

Why just me i gave all that i needed to you
I just wished you hadnt been so mean
 
I always thought its only love that you need
I just cant believe that you never loved me
 
In all that i have seen it was you i needed the most just that now i wish even your soul should freeze  

I dont need things to have a life
I just need my heart again to be pure and clean.

Its been a while I have thought straight
Havent even thrown a fit
Just cause havent felt love in a while
Doesnt mean I was a miss-fit

Emotions have frozen
Anger no roads of memories
Happiness fights it own turmoil
How will I live in riveries

Songs have a tune
How will it rhyme now like melodies
Words have lost meaning
Notes need those positive theories

Uncanny isnt it
I realised this too
Hence cutting short these lines
I am now a taboo

Rider…

Posted: May 27, 2011 in pictorial, thoughts, warriror
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for : http://bluebellbooks.blogspot.com/2011/05/short-story-slam-week-2.html

Four hooves a leather strap and seat to rest upon

Horizon on my gaze and packed for a long season

March I with this horse as it be a part of me

Sleep under the moon with grass as our bedspread

Lonely it may seem but I prefer to be called alone

Life has taken its toll and so today we ride into the unknown

Sun comes up with a hue of red on rise

Skin burns by noon it’s worth it for twilight scenes

Creator is merciful for he leaves us with waterholes

Shades from trees and shrubs with berries

Life couldn’t be simpler yet I gaze to the horizon and wonder

After all that has been and seen I find myself at ease to be a horse rider

Beginning is crucial

End is far more important too

Cause it’s the way one says goodbye

Some like it sweet

Some with a tinge of salt to the side

Some like it rare while others enjoy the pleads

Not one is same and never one alike

There are ways which work and some will always fail

No preordained formula to break the ice or hammer the nail

One has to zip zap or stay on by

Stride up the hill or just walk slowly high

Stay longer or too fast or high will get you no smile

Time pulls and it gives

Wish everyone a gun to hold it ransom

Try a finger pointing to you Defenses will be at peaks

I cant give you advice

I am stricken worst then you

I cant be I if you never had We

Long and short of life it stands

Emotional waves tie up the one in you

Release is conditional and try in vain we all had

Ask me if I wanted too

Reasons zillions but answers to zits

Smoke is with a fire and yet here I stand with ashes