Archive for the ‘deep notions’ Category

Not by choice

Posted: May 23, 2013 in beloved, deep notions, Romance

No I never wanted to leave you alone
Stranded on the pedestal
I wanted to be besides you
The reason for your smile and its lines
A super hero with power’s in your idea’s
The reason for you to take life for granted
A blessing you would be I dont deserve
Goodbye is not my choice
Love
Love is my Sin hence distance we must keep

Crazy head

Posted: May 7, 2013 in beloved, deep notions, helpless

Haven’t been able to write
Prose Poetry Slams confused
Rhymes nothing without you
Babble is all i do

Crazy Head

Thoughts erased without you
Troubled i have many in search
Two were We now its just Me
That this and then i cant see

Crazy head… Thats in me… Still looks for We

Eight..

Posted: January 15, 2013 in beloved, deep notions, Romance, thoughts

It could have been eight
Always imagined to be delight
But you never read past seven

Bright it all seemed
Eighth was not even required in creation
But you never appreciated or had pride

A year of sadness borrowed
wonders of the world could have Eighth
But you ensured it was all of fright

Not a day in the past in seventh
Where thoughts had you held
Ended you before it could be eigth …

Why

Posted: September 8, 2012 in deep notions, helpless, insane, thoughts

We had a life ahead of us
You said you dreamed it too
We were to be one

You chose to run
I dont blame you
But i hate you for what you have done

Everyone has ideas
We had ours to make a life
Dreamland we were to create

You made a wrong choice
God knows i still love you
Now i curse the day we met

You were to share and stay
Dismised you all that i made
Tried really tried to have it glued
But
Left i am now with only a Why

Lake side

Posted: July 25, 2012 in deep notions, thoughts

image

Here iam by the same lake side
wishing to be in the same time frame
Memories flushed into the pool of my head

Times have remained but the seasons have changed
Yet i can find something to base my words new all over again
Its strange times cause i am happy yet i feel lame

Hollow are our ideas if not implemented correct
You never are sure about the words you said
Retrospect each idea and tell me if i am wrong again

Names and people i never remember yet i cant let go
Like these ripples i get pushed to the banks
This sweet calm in day light and black shadow by night
As are my dreams colored in twilight

Yet i find myself here again
As if these banks call my name time and time again
Die and live my thoughts with every rise and its sunset
Dreaming of old memories at the lake side

You…

Posted: July 17, 2012 in deep notions, helpless, insane

You brought happiness
I hadnt asked for it
You made me a man
I dint wana growup
You made me a house
I wanted to travel
You made me prove
I dint even know myself
You opened the gates
I had never even lockedup

You made me mad
I hadnt even understood
You made me choose
I hadnt known what i wanted
You made me create
I dint even know my wants
You made me Me
now i dont even know who it is

Irrelevant in time

Posted: June 19, 2012 in deep notions, helpless, universe

Memories are time loops
Swing you through to those times
Some filled with pain some with goosebumps and smiles

There are moments in present
When future or past holds no truth
Everything seems untrue or to have stoped

When in the arms of your love
All seems to have vanished and banished
Time has no relevance to that moment of truth

Heart understands no time
When its broken everything stops
All moves with a slow redundant speed
Time makes no relevance of this pain

Time is not speed,time is not true
Time is imagination, time is irrelevant
Cause pain and love control every move me make

We cant know everything, actually we will never know nothing.
And to know that we cant know everything is wisdom (leo tolstoy)
The only thing we can know is what we want. A child wants to grow and have fun it doesnt understand good or bad it just knows what it wants and what makes it smile.
A sadhu wants to attain inner peace to be one with this world, which i think means death without leaving bad memories or noncompleted deeds.
Rest of us want a lot but mostly all want love.
I dont really understand how can one reach higher state of consiousness when the seeker is wanting it in the first place. If someone doesnt want anything i mean nothing not even inner peace or whatever that is, would truly be free. We all are bound by our wants and needs nothing wrong cause we are animals after all.
i want to know everything that there can be known but thats unachievable and i am sure you agree, if thats true than i cant achieve the higher state for if i dont know what all surrounds me and affects me how am i to rid myself of it.
Personaly i believe the ones we call crazy or mad are the people who have understood more than us normal people and hence they have lost it or got to the higher state.
The most controversial thing is… hindu vedas start with a simple statement ” jagath mithya” meaning everything is an illusion and hence all that we know is false. Like the colors we see actually dont exist they are just given colors by our brain for different shades of black to make it easier for us to differentiate. If it all starts by being false by the color itself then rest is self explanatory.
I am not saying to find the higher state and stuff is wrong or hokus.pokus but that we need to have a control on our wants or to get to state of peace we need to not want anything not even want inner peace, but thats never gona happen you see. So one should achieve all that one wants and then you might truly achieve an unwanting stage and be at peace…but then again that will never happen we humans keep wanting more and more.
Then my or anyone elses chase to keep getting at our wants is the journey to getting to inner peace like a meditators meditation is to his.
What our are wants, they ae desires for money, materials and to be loved, so we are seeking things to have all this stuff but for whom for the ones we love and to get love in return. Love drives us all, so if i get the ideal love have i achieved nirvana… If thats sounds true what are these sadhus, monks etc..looking for in solitude for in their state of solace they are with no one, then maybe to rid ones self of all forms of love is to get the ultimate inner peace… But what if one falls in love with the idea of solitude then again you are wanting something and the whole journey to higher state is wasted.
In this whole argument all are defeated as either ways we all are wanting something..even love for god or devotion to god is wanting for thy holiness blessings or something.
This wiserskydiver feels to completly love someone without any expectations or questions is to get the higher state.. And that again is unachievable for at some point you gona be wanting to be loved back, but those few moments when you unquestioningly loving someone is yojr higher state, when you are truly happy just being with someone for no reason or wants..that is true nirvana.