Archive for September 3, 2010


i hate being helpless
i hate being not in control of destiny
i hate being not there
i hate being there too
i hate being an outsider
i hate being with them
i hate being helpless

its like the 1st time when i jumped into deep water
the ground below was missing and i was gasping for air
i stroked me hands and flapped me legs like a big fat fish
but i went sinking….. then i felt helpless

its like the 1st time when i went on a local train
i couldnt get in thru its gates
i was being pushed around
i was being stuffed with them
i was being held against a stranger
i was being helpless

its like something i dont wana feel
i fear being helpless
i fear being not in control
i wana hold and stop all that i am told