Archive for August 14, 2010

hollow on the inside

Posted: August 14, 2010 in thoughts

have you ever looked inside of an air filled balloon it looks empty it looks hollow…. on the outside it looks filled and one can never guess the weight of an air filled balloon, every time we pick it up we are surprised of its weight.

just like that we never have the idea of how alone we get on the inside, we fill our lives with temporary joys, toys and short time fun. in the long run when we look down deep inside we find a big hollow.

every once in a while we stop and look down memory lane and end up looking at a big hollow on self achievement, we sure do have a lot of joyful moments, we draw a blank on self improvement… we might have got that VP tag or the 80 footer but some how we feel hollow about our self.

thats when we broaden our horizons and look out beyond the hollow as if we discover the other side of a black hole and really start enjoying life… we find immense happiness in a short bicycle ride wearing an armani jacket or buying flowers at 2 in the night and ringing the door bell completely drunk yet sober enough to know shes angry, we smile at a complete stranger cause once you looked hollow like him/her too.

it would be great if everyone feels hollow sooner for then we shall know how to fill that up… just plain simple Love … love for life.


Posted: August 14, 2010 in thoughts

I am blessed for everyone loves to talk to me share their deep thoughts, tell me about their short falls or even their happy ones.
All that I have heard or said why can’t I make it applicable to my own chain of smoked filled thoughts.
I just can’t cry anymore or get stressed or feel low when iam with the outside world, deep alone in thoughts I sullk dry causing the ashes of my burnt thoughts to fill me up but its all dry.
I wana talk too I wana say things too for I swear I hurt a lot too, belive me I can cry too this smile is not always true its a coverup so the dews drops don’t moist the ashes inside for I fear being sucked into it like quicksand yet I wana talk too.
I may not give reasons or paint a detailed picture I just wana talk, just say things randomly not make sense mostly bable on yet I wana talk too.

silence in Words…

Posted: August 14, 2010 in thoughts


silence is inspiring it gives wayz to wayz which seemd blocked. The best place of silence for me is on top of me crap pot, u think and rethink in silence so that doesnt make it silent times for u r brain aint quiet its talking to u in silence. Only silence i achievd was on the 3rd day of vipasana offcourse i quit the program on the 4th day for not having thoughts disturbd me. So silence for us is not having a 3rd person talk to us so that we can gather words in silence e.g. What to say to that nasty person when he says that to me next time or in my tmmws presentation i shld add this line in the intro etc… We i.e. City ppl never really have heard silence for even when we go out of the city on a vacation we say ” khtni shanti hai” and keep thinking of the peace around we never go blank, even when we sleep we dream. I knw how it felt when i went blank at that program it sacred me at 1st then made me feel dumb for i had nothing to think Which also made me realise that self talking or our words in silence are like therapy it better’s us in ways to interact with situations. Silence in words has purpose make good of it 😉